Today-Yesterday-Tomorrow

When you are raised in a small town, a death can really effect everyone. About two weeks ago, a young men in his 20s died in a one vehicle accident while on duty. This young man I never honestly KNEW him but I knew his wife, and in-laws better. He left behind a 2(?) yrs old daughter, and beautiful wife, and many love ones. It was a very very sad day. I can honestly say that it effected me. It is one of those things that strikes one heart and mind. I honestly was thinking and still do about every movement I make behind the wheel lately. During my sisters last pregnancy, I remember getting a call from her in tears. For some reason, she has nightmares that would tear my heart apart if I would have dreamed them. She just called me to make sure that I was still alive and not hurt. As I proceeded to ponder what she was talking about, she relayed to me the depth and emotion of her dream. She had dreamed that I had died in a car accident and that my family (kids and huby) drove up and told them that I had died and then just drove away. NEEDLESS TO SAY, that dream has been playing in my mind lately. Every time it has been just me driving somewhere --long distance-- and with out my family there, it starts to play in my mind in a torturing cycle. Of course, by the time I am home and with them, it disappears as if it never happened. Then add on top of it that my GRANDMA-in-law has not been going so well, I guess you could imagine or guess that my emotions are on over load lately. My GRANDMA-in-law is of the wise age of 92 or 93 and her fragile body is just that. She has been in and out of the hospital lately due to the underlying case of her heart. A year ago in April, we all thought she was going to meet her true love in the clouds but the Lord still had and has plans for her. My hubby told me at one time that I reminded him of her plus I am blessed to share a birthday with her. I just feel a very special connection with her. She has survived 20 something years with our her first love on this earth and this past week was their anniversary. How she longs to see her Lord and hubby! So She I want to thank her for being such a role model in my life. She and my Granny Wells were so much a like it was inspiring to watch them CHIT-CHAT. All the grandmas that were and still are in my life are such role models to the young women in this new age of life. They all loved the Lord with no end and still have/had the desire to serve him thru the depression and dark times. What a print they have left in my life... Words could never express what they taught me for they touched my heart and those around them....The one thing that I did learn from them what when one prays earnestly, God will provide. For the last couple of weeks many have been praying for rain, and it rained. This summer is going to be a hot one as usual, but hopefully it will be greener. Thank goodness all we have had has been just rain. There has been several places in this state and country that have had tons of water, wind, and ice dropped from the clouds. I have experience all three but in my early childhood. I use to be so scarred by thunderstorms and to a point I am still but Children cause you to be brave... If you panic about the storms, they will too. It is like a double bonus when I tell my oldest that we are safe and God is protecting us...It is like God is telling me that same thing thru what I am telling herr. I love the way it looks and smells right after the rains. Everything is looks clear and SHARPER to the eye, the earth has a fresh breeze like scent and the dust has been knocked out of the air. I guess you could say I am a rain nut... I can't ever seem to want enough of it. It is in part from my raising in the country that requires rain to provide vegetation for stock animals and water for them to drink I guess.
No matter the weather or souls coming or going, life continues to speed on it path.
As school is starting to wind down, the kids started to get wind up (excited and impatient/distracted) for the summer break is calling their name. It has got to be so complex and overwhelming for teachers to try and install all the new requirements of needed knowledge into their students these days with all the new regulations and guidelines they have to follow. This of course include my Hubby and oldest who spend their lives at school, and are looking forward to a much deserved and needed vacation from the education realm of things. As for myself, work is constantly on a steady wave of business. From weekly and timely reports to instant needs, I am at a busy speed. I am currently there but I am on a break from my rush of work ..... to keep my sanity, to put it simply. I too long for the break but my breaks are the in-betweens while at work kind. School has come and gone for me. and has been replaced with the reality of no more extended vacations unless they are without employment or on my earned leave time of course. No complaint here though!! I am so blessed to have a great job, boss, and employer (with benefits). Life is good, busy, and full of surprises, but don't forget to stop and enjoy the small things in life too..