August 22, 2006

SELFISHNES...

I beleive that I am guilty of this... For the last 2 years I have been part of our Church Choir and I love it. Due to one of my little ones starting school I can not long attend practices on Wednesday nights or least until after Christmas. I am having a very hard time with this and I think it is because I am have been being selfish. My children need me to be there and get them to bed at night and that it my job. I feel that I have been neglecting my duties and I feel very ashamed. I don't want to short-change my family anymore and I think that this is the first step in fixing this matter which is admitting that it is problem and fixing it. As most know, Music and I click and for once, I realize that my passion will needs to cool down and my responsiblity to heat up like it should. I mean after all I am their mother and God gave them to me to take care of and raise and so I must clean up my life for them. Of course this does not mean that the Lord has closed the door forever but maybe just temporary. I can still be apart of Choir but just step back from it alittle. Please pray that I will stick to this and see the rewards for it. I know that it will be tons of fun being able to be with my children more and I am excited about it but I just needed to get this off my chest and be honest with myself.
My Hubby is doing great. This is his first week of school and like most teachers it is a little bumpy road. I think he is going to do GREAT. Did I mention that he is an assistant coach now too...? That will start in the spring. SO much going on....
WOW life is great is it not... THANKS GOD...

August 17, 2006

So it begins

Well, it is that time again and the schools are starting to buzz with activity. As some may know my Hubby is a teacher now and also an assistant track coach. This will be his fist year as a teacher and I am sure that it is a bit overwhelming. I know that once he gets passed the TEACHER REQUIREMENTS, his students will learn a lot and enjoy it...He'll do great! My oldest will start Pre-K as well and she is so excited. I am of course excited and sad. That means that my little one is growing up. Thank goodness I will not be taking her but her daddy...aka BUDDY. She asks everyday if she is going to school tomorrow and to ours and her dismay we tell her not yet. Then on top of that, my sis in law is now at College getting ready for her freshmen year. I am sure that it has not hit her yet but it will and I hope that she will rely on God for her strength. It sure will be sad not getting to see her in Church every meeting day...Tear...
So the world turns and each moment we get closer and closer to the begin of our eternity...May I always remember that even though life changes, his love remains the same.